The Duggar Family

Like many people, I am no fan of the Duggar Family or in their beliefs. They could very easily practice NFP, but they are letting it in God's hands to decide how many children they are to have. I find it incredibly hard to believe that you can care for 19+ kids at one time. It is mind boggling. But I am not here to talk about that; to each their own.

I am going to talk about no matter what your beliefs are no woman deserves to go through any loss, yet a pregnancy loss at 20 weeks. Its heartbreaking and one that will be in her memories to the day she dies.

Its also heartbreaking for those on facebook and else where to judge her and say things, "it serves her right". Until you have been through a pregnancy loss or miscarriage you have no right to comment on her loss. No right! I wouldn't wish a miscarriage or pregnancy loss on my worst enemy. There are no words...

Did it serve her right when she miscarried her second pregnancy? Which by the way led to why they have chosen to let in God's hands to decide how many children they have. Should those of us who have losses just stop trying, is that what God is telling us?

God gives us nothing more than what we can handle. His challenges and our struggles make us stronger and better people. They remind us we have so much to be grateful for and in the end God has a plan for us.

I will be praying for Michelle and The Duggar Family tonight.

New Blog

Here is my new blog, as promised Pregnant After RPL. Its a work in progress and doesn't quite feel as "homey".

Ummm....not what I was expecting!

I decided to POAS today, 16 dpo. I have so many OPKs that I was like WTH? Let's see what happens. Before the control line appeared there was a line at the test line. I totally did a double take.

I ran to the other bathroom to grab a dollar store HPT and that line came up rather dark as well. HOLY SHIT!

Not what I was expecting!! This can't be! I was just complaining that this cycle was a bust and that I was tired of BFP announcements and here goes mine.

I am 4w3d pregnant today and I love my baby.

I called, yes called, DH after I got out of the shower and said something along the lines of, "Hey, you're never gonna believe this! :::pause::: I decided to pee on an opk today because my period has not arrived. :::another pause::: It was positive! I got a HPT out and tested with that and its also positive. :::yet another pause::: I'm pregnant!" Needless to say DH was surprised as well and of course commented on the fact that he has super sperm. :::eye roll:::

DH called my doctor due to the fact that I had jury duty today. Kathy, Dr. Daggs nurse of course sent me for blood work later that afternoon. She warned me that this may still be left over HCG from my injections, which we all were fully aware of. However, if you remember the cycle before I tested out until AF arrived and my line at 15dpo was barely there.

Things however do look promising at 16 dpo my hcg level was 1032 & progesterone was 40. :::SHOCK::: When Kathy called to give me the results she said that these levels were great and Dr. Daggs said that these levels are high enough to support a multiple pregnancy. :::EYES POPPING OUT OF MY HEAD::: However, we would confirm that these levels are rising on Monday (really that long?) and when levels reach between 6-10 thousand I will have my first u/s. She said that she did not want to get my hopes up but that these numbers were excellent.

Now, this is the last time you will hear about Baby #6, unless of course I miscarry. I plan to get a new blog up and running that way those of you who are reading this blog will continue to visit and feel that this is a safe place. I don't plan to stop posting about RPL and miscarriage. I will pass along information as I come about it.

:::HUGS::: to all who need them! And especially to those who find this post difficult to read. I will be praying for you!!!

I'm soooo over....

BFP announcements!

Facebook statuses that relate to being pregnant, again BFP announcements, posting weekly milestones, announcing c-section or induction is scheduled and giving people who want to visit restrictions AND instructions on when they can visit in the maternity ward. (Seriously if this wasn't a public blog I would probably cut & paste this 680 word status because I really just want to tell her to get over herself! Really you couldn't do this in a more private way?)

GO F*** OFF & SUCK IT!

Sorry, I'm going to chalk all this up to PMS. This really hasn't bothered me too much lately but tonight...tonight it is not sitting well.